For those of you who know me, I'm not a very selfish person. At least I like to think I'm not. I like to put others first and make sure they are comfortable with doing something before I just do it. I like to make sure everyone else is okay before I am okay which I suppose in some cases and especially in the job I am doing it is fine because I need to make sure everyone is okay. But, it's a bad trait to have for decision making because nothing gets done or it takes a long time to get done because everyone has to be okay with everything.
However, this wedding is nothing like that. I have to make the decisions (mostly with the OK from Adam) and I have to be the one that likes it; that wants it; that thinks it will look good. So, instead of making sure everyone else is okay with it, I have to be okay with it... whatever 'it' may be. This is a weird concept to me considering the trait I have sometimes I find myself asking others what I should do when all they turn around and say is 'I don't know if you don't like it then don't have it'. So I have to think of myself first and Adam just tells me to think of myself first. I don't know about you but it is a hard concept to master for someone who doesn't do it.
So, what I am trying to say is...
If you want something on your big day and you can afford to do it, then do it. If you don't want something/someone to be there on your big then don't do it or don't have them there. It is your decision. It can be quite hard sometimes to say no to inviting someone to a wedding that your parents want you to invite or inviting someone you haven't seen in years just because it's wedding-invite-ettiquette, but just say no. You'll feel like a completely horrible person at first but then you'll feel better at having made the choice you wanted. Because even though sometimes saying no is a hard word to say at the end of the day you're the one who will be sat in the white dress possibly at the front of a big room full of those people that you want there and surrounded by the beautiful decorations you chose to have.
It's harsh but it's worth it... at least I am sure it will be when I finally sit there in the big white dress at the front of a hall full of people I want at my wedding, surrounded by the beautiful decorations I've chosen to have.